I'm slacking on the posts..mainly because, well, I'm busy LOL! This is my last week of my Statistics class (YAY!) and I have a client that was supposed to be induced last night...we are still waiting for the hossy to have room for her *sigh*
March 29, 2010; 262 lbs
March 30, 2010; 261 lbs
So part of me thinks my plan to eat lunch for dinner and dinner right before bed back fired. I'm not confident in today's weight because the scale was acting funny. I also think my recent stress over getting through and lack of confidence in myself and the diet have had a lot to do with it as well. Also, the idea of being up all night with a client scared me. I still may face that tonight...scratch that-I will face that tonight. I noticed yesterday that I was not hungry until dinner which was a good feeling. I didn't feel too hungry after eating either. I told myself today that I was going to eat lunch at lunch time. I was worried my body was going into further starvation mode because I wasn't eating all day. So today, I ate Melba toast for a snack around 10:30 when I gave Cohen his snack. Then I had lunch at 12:30 when he was down for a nap. No matter when I last fed him, he wants to eat my lunch and dinner which makes it hard because mine has to be measured/weighed prior to cooking..and I only get so much LOL! It is now almost 4pm and I am starting to feel hungry so I will probably eat another Melba toast and maybe an apple for a snack to get me to dinner. I will also be packing some fruit and veggies in my doula bag for tonight to get me through...and LOTS of tea!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Advice from a friend
It's not secret that I've really been struggling the last couple of days. There's a fine line between hungry and not full. I've experienced this and there have been times in the past where I worked on training myself to stop eating when I'm no longer hungry..before full/stuffed. Fine, I can handle that feeling. However, the last 2-3 days, I am HUNGRY...like stomach growling hungry.
I already increased my injections from 12.5 to 15. The next step is 20 and for whatever reason, I didn't want to have to go up to 20. I guess I thought it was mind over matter and I wouldn't need the max. After starting to feel defeated and feeling like I was barely keeping my head above water, I emailed Rachel. A very good family friend who has been here before.
She obviously sticks to the food list but gears more to the 500 calories rather than the portioning sizes, if that makes sense. Most vegetables (especially the ones that are allowed) have very little calories so there is little difference between say 1-2 cups. She told me she ate a lot of apples. I have never been a big fan of apples but I am developing a better liking to them. I mean, I've always liked them but if I had the choice between an apple and any other fruit, I would chose the other fruit. So she would eat an apple for breakfast and eat the Melba toasts for snacks. She at the 3.5oz of protein with lunch and dinner but ate as many veggies as she needed to be "not hungry". She also ate fruit for lunch and ate an apple before bed. She also gave me a little trick I hadn't though of. Slice and apple, sprinkle with a little cinnamon (no sugar) and bake. Makes a yummy dessert! In order to keep track of calories, she uses a calorie counter to make sure she stays within (or close to) the 500 calories alotted.
I also learned today that she was at 20 for her injections as well..made me feel better, definitely! I am going to try this new mindset tomorrow and see where that gets me. I didn't eat "lunch" until 5:30 and dinner was around 10:30. This may come in handy tomorrow night while I'm at the hospital. I drank A LOT of tea today and kept busy otherwise I would've never made it to 5:30 with no food LOL!
I already increased my injections from 12.5 to 15. The next step is 20 and for whatever reason, I didn't want to have to go up to 20. I guess I thought it was mind over matter and I wouldn't need the max. After starting to feel defeated and feeling like I was barely keeping my head above water, I emailed Rachel. A very good family friend who has been here before.
She obviously sticks to the food list but gears more to the 500 calories rather than the portioning sizes, if that makes sense. Most vegetables (especially the ones that are allowed) have very little calories so there is little difference between say 1-2 cups. She told me she ate a lot of apples. I have never been a big fan of apples but I am developing a better liking to them. I mean, I've always liked them but if I had the choice between an apple and any other fruit, I would chose the other fruit. So she would eat an apple for breakfast and eat the Melba toasts for snacks. She at the 3.5oz of protein with lunch and dinner but ate as many veggies as she needed to be "not hungry". She also ate fruit for lunch and ate an apple before bed. She also gave me a little trick I hadn't though of. Slice and apple, sprinkle with a little cinnamon (no sugar) and bake. Makes a yummy dessert! In order to keep track of calories, she uses a calorie counter to make sure she stays within (or close to) the 500 calories alotted.
I also learned today that she was at 20 for her injections as well..made me feel better, definitely! I am going to try this new mindset tomorrow and see where that gets me. I didn't eat "lunch" until 5:30 and dinner was around 10:30. This may come in handy tomorrow night while I'm at the hospital. I drank A LOT of tea today and kept busy otherwise I would've never made it to 5:30 with no food LOL!
2 for 1
March 27, 2010; 272.4 lbs
March 28, 2010; 272.6 lbs
I didn't get a chance to get on the computer yesterday to type out a post so today is a sort of 2 for 1.
Yesterday was probably the hardest day I have had. I was extremely hungry after dinner last night. I tried to eat slowly to try to trick my body into thinking I was eating more than I actually was but it had little affect. After about an hour, I caved in and ate another Melba toast...20 calories, 0 fat. It couldn't have possibly done anything but based on the scale this morning..it did. 0.2 lbs is not a lot at all but it also didn't alot a loss of weight. Other factors could play into what the scale said this morning-water retention being the main factor. I was warned about this so it could be coincidence that I ate and extra Melba toast but I'm not sure. Today is the 3rd day on the increased injection amount. My goal today is to hold off lunch as long as possible even if that takes me to dinner time. I am ok before I eat but here it is 1:30 and I am drinking water and tea to try and curb the hunger I am starting to feel. I am also going to just eat protein and veggie for lunch, then eat the fruit and Melba toast for a snack to get me to dinner. I may do the same for dinner and save for another snack before bed. It isn't an increase in food but it may trick my body into thinking I am eating 4 meals.
I really don't want to have to increase my injection again so I will try these tricks first. I am also trying to figure out Monday night/Tuesday morning. I have a client being induced at 9pm Monday night which means I will be up all night instead of sleeping...which also means, I will be up all night with nothing to eat. I will be calling my doctor to see what my options are since I will be working/burning when I would normally be sleeping. If I don't have any options, I may have to risk the lack of loss or a potential small gain to get through the night.
March 28, 2010; 272.6 lbs
I didn't get a chance to get on the computer yesterday to type out a post so today is a sort of 2 for 1.
Yesterday was probably the hardest day I have had. I was extremely hungry after dinner last night. I tried to eat slowly to try to trick my body into thinking I was eating more than I actually was but it had little affect. After about an hour, I caved in and ate another Melba toast...20 calories, 0 fat. It couldn't have possibly done anything but based on the scale this morning..it did. 0.2 lbs is not a lot at all but it also didn't alot a loss of weight. Other factors could play into what the scale said this morning-water retention being the main factor. I was warned about this so it could be coincidence that I ate and extra Melba toast but I'm not sure. Today is the 3rd day on the increased injection amount. My goal today is to hold off lunch as long as possible even if that takes me to dinner time. I am ok before I eat but here it is 1:30 and I am drinking water and tea to try and curb the hunger I am starting to feel. I am also going to just eat protein and veggie for lunch, then eat the fruit and Melba toast for a snack to get me to dinner. I may do the same for dinner and save for another snack before bed. It isn't an increase in food but it may trick my body into thinking I am eating 4 meals.
I really don't want to have to increase my injection again so I will try these tricks first. I am also trying to figure out Monday night/Tuesday morning. I have a client being induced at 9pm Monday night which means I will be up all night instead of sleeping...which also means, I will be up all night with nothing to eat. I will be calling my doctor to see what my options are since I will be working/burning when I would normally be sleeping. If I don't have any options, I may have to risk the lack of loss or a potential small gain to get through the night.
Friday, March 26, 2010
1 week down
March 26, 2010; 274.6 lbs
I made it to the 1 week mark. The last 2 days have been really hard but I've pushed through without cheating..barely. I am down another pound and a half which is good..or so I keep telling myself. A poud a day is REALLY GOOD. It's just hard because I had the day of 4 pounds lost and now I feel like it's slowed down but in retrospect, 1 pound/day = 7 pounds/week. It's good.
I increased my hCG dosing today as well. My doctor said if I am still hungry after 1 week, to increase it. After increasing it, if I'm still hungry after 3 days, increase again. I hope I don't need to increase to the max. I was sure after a week, I would be ok but I'm not. The evenings are the hardest. This is when I usually eat the most. Last night I put dinner off until 9pm thinking I could just go to bed. It's really a funny feeling. I'm not "hungry" when I eat but within 20 minutes of finishing my meal, my stomach starts growling. I am ashamed to admit it but I haven't had that feeling in a long time. The feeling of really actually hungry. I would eat before I was hungry and eat beyond full. It's not a wonder I am where I am now. Anyway, I'm hoping the increase in hCG will help my evenings.
Tonight will be yet another challenge. I am attending a "Meet the Doula's" night which so happens to be at Paradise Bakery. A place that is easier to eat healthy, however, they do not have anything I can eat. I love their food and we will have mini sandwiches and cookies set up for everyone. I know I can resist...at least, I hope I can.
I made it to the 1 week mark. The last 2 days have been really hard but I've pushed through without cheating..barely. I am down another pound and a half which is good..or so I keep telling myself. A poud a day is REALLY GOOD. It's just hard because I had the day of 4 pounds lost and now I feel like it's slowed down but in retrospect, 1 pound/day = 7 pounds/week. It's good.
I increased my hCG dosing today as well. My doctor said if I am still hungry after 1 week, to increase it. After increasing it, if I'm still hungry after 3 days, increase again. I hope I don't need to increase to the max. I was sure after a week, I would be ok but I'm not. The evenings are the hardest. This is when I usually eat the most. Last night I put dinner off until 9pm thinking I could just go to bed. It's really a funny feeling. I'm not "hungry" when I eat but within 20 minutes of finishing my meal, my stomach starts growling. I am ashamed to admit it but I haven't had that feeling in a long time. The feeling of really actually hungry. I would eat before I was hungry and eat beyond full. It's not a wonder I am where I am now. Anyway, I'm hoping the increase in hCG will help my evenings.
Tonight will be yet another challenge. I am attending a "Meet the Doula's" night which so happens to be at Paradise Bakery. A place that is easier to eat healthy, however, they do not have anything I can eat. I love their food and we will have mini sandwiches and cookies set up for everyone. I know I can resist...at least, I hope I can.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Temptations and Tiredness
March 25, 2010; 276 lbs; 8 lbs down :)
Today was a challenge. I expected challenges but it is getting harder and harder. The mornings are fine; I have no problems in the morning. The afternoon, evening? Another story. I was doing fine until I had to go to the store for dog food and I wanted to pick up some flavored teas.
So, I grabbed a snack for the boys, picked up Braedon from school, and we headed to the store. I *tried* to be good and breeze past aisles containing food I couldn't have. Of course, right inside the front door was FRESH baked French bread..ugh! Then there were avocado's on an end cap..come on! I had to pick up more paper plates which just so conveniently happens to be by the potato chips. I am not normally a potato chip person but when you "can't" have it, all of a sudden, that's all you do want! Ok, quick out of the grocery aisles. I did it backwards, of course, so I had to head to the other end of the store for dog food. Great, out of temptation zones, right? WRONG!
I headed to check out and of course every line was jam packed. I scouted out the shortest line and waited my turn. I get into the actual line part, you know the part I'm talking about...the drinks, and candies, and chips, and all the impulse buy stuff. Of couse, my luck means that not only is there lines of candy..this just so happens to be the ICE CREAM aisle! Are you freakin kidding me? So here I am surrounded by yummy delicious ice cream and candy galore. I would have picked up the Reese's peices, the beef jerky, the skittles, and a few ice creams. Ok maybe not all of it normally, but today I certainly wanted to. I wondered what just a little taste would do for my weight loss. Just a little taste??
Then came dinner. I thought I would be ok making the boys dinner since it had been ok. Well, previous nights didn't consist of Fettuccine Alfredo. Yeah, big mistake today! I scooped the boys portions onto their plates and let them start eating. I wanted to take just one bite so bad. Just one bite couldn't hurt. I kept telling myself one bite would be ok.
Thankfully, my better judgement won and I didn't take just a bite. But, I still want to. Such is life I guess.
Today also brought on a sort of tiredness. I don't want to say exhausted because I'm not there. Walking around the store made me realize I was just tired. My body was tired, not my head..if that makes sense. I almost felt like I had been at the gym for 2 hours. I also noticed my tummy muscles had the same feeling..weird! I was told to inject in my abdomen so maybe that explains the feeling there? Not sure but it wasn't bothersome. I don't have an abundance of energy and I do wear out easily but it's not like I can't function daily. This could also be because of the wonderful flu (or whatever it is) that I've been battling the last few days as well.
I have noticed dry skin which I was warned about. Since I am not consuming any fat or oils, the skin tends to dry out. My face is taking the hit of it so far so I definitely need to go out and get one of the approved oil free lotions besides baby lotion. I can't see putting baby lotion on my face but when push comes to shove, I will resort to baby lotion LOL! Another side effect is break outs. Ah yes, I feel like I am a teenager again..FANTASTIC!
Ok, last thing..keeping up with previous posts...my menu today :)
Lunch: Chicken Spinach salad-I put some fresh spinach in a bowl, cut up chicken and smashed the Melba toast as a sort of croutons. Then drizzled some red wine vinegar as dressing. For fruit, I had half a grapefruit lightly sprinkled with Stevia. It was pretty tasty and quite satisfying. Spinach is something I can have unlimited of :)
Dinner: Since I had so many temptations today, I attempted a couple things I wouldn't normally eat. There are only so many foods I can eat and half of them are eliminated due to my preference. Ok so for dinner I had Ahi Tuna. I wrapped it in foil with a little balsamic vinegar and crushed garlic. I also baked (or roasted maybe?) some cauliflower. I saw this on Rachel Ray yesterday but had to make some modifications since she used EVOO. So I broke it into peices and laid it on a cookie sheet then sprinkled with balsamic vinegar (I really like vinegar if you can't tell LOL) and baked for a few minutes. It was pretty tasty! Of couse I had the Melba toast and an apple. The Ahi Tuna was actually pretty good. Next time I'll try Lemon Pepper and maybe fresh lemon. But it is a hearty fish and I felt like I ate something so that's good :)
Today was a challenge. I expected challenges but it is getting harder and harder. The mornings are fine; I have no problems in the morning. The afternoon, evening? Another story. I was doing fine until I had to go to the store for dog food and I wanted to pick up some flavored teas.
So, I grabbed a snack for the boys, picked up Braedon from school, and we headed to the store. I *tried* to be good and breeze past aisles containing food I couldn't have. Of course, right inside the front door was FRESH baked French bread..ugh! Then there were avocado's on an end cap..come on! I had to pick up more paper plates which just so conveniently happens to be by the potato chips. I am not normally a potato chip person but when you "can't" have it, all of a sudden, that's all you do want! Ok, quick out of the grocery aisles. I did it backwards, of course, so I had to head to the other end of the store for dog food. Great, out of temptation zones, right? WRONG!
I headed to check out and of course every line was jam packed. I scouted out the shortest line and waited my turn. I get into the actual line part, you know the part I'm talking about...the drinks, and candies, and chips, and all the impulse buy stuff. Of couse, my luck means that not only is there lines of candy..this just so happens to be the ICE CREAM aisle! Are you freakin kidding me? So here I am surrounded by yummy delicious ice cream and candy galore. I would have picked up the Reese's peices, the beef jerky, the skittles, and a few ice creams. Ok maybe not all of it normally, but today I certainly wanted to. I wondered what just a little taste would do for my weight loss. Just a little taste??
Then came dinner. I thought I would be ok making the boys dinner since it had been ok. Well, previous nights didn't consist of Fettuccine Alfredo. Yeah, big mistake today! I scooped the boys portions onto their plates and let them start eating. I wanted to take just one bite so bad. Just one bite couldn't hurt. I kept telling myself one bite would be ok.
Thankfully, my better judgement won and I didn't take just a bite. But, I still want to. Such is life I guess.
Today also brought on a sort of tiredness. I don't want to say exhausted because I'm not there. Walking around the store made me realize I was just tired. My body was tired, not my head..if that makes sense. I almost felt like I had been at the gym for 2 hours. I also noticed my tummy muscles had the same feeling..weird! I was told to inject in my abdomen so maybe that explains the feeling there? Not sure but it wasn't bothersome. I don't have an abundance of energy and I do wear out easily but it's not like I can't function daily. This could also be because of the wonderful flu (or whatever it is) that I've been battling the last few days as well.
I have noticed dry skin which I was warned about. Since I am not consuming any fat or oils, the skin tends to dry out. My face is taking the hit of it so far so I definitely need to go out and get one of the approved oil free lotions besides baby lotion. I can't see putting baby lotion on my face but when push comes to shove, I will resort to baby lotion LOL! Another side effect is break outs. Ah yes, I feel like I am a teenager again..FANTASTIC!
Ok, last thing..keeping up with previous posts...my menu today :)
Lunch: Chicken Spinach salad-I put some fresh spinach in a bowl, cut up chicken and smashed the Melba toast as a sort of croutons. Then drizzled some red wine vinegar as dressing. For fruit, I had half a grapefruit lightly sprinkled with Stevia. It was pretty tasty and quite satisfying. Spinach is something I can have unlimited of :)
Dinner: Since I had so many temptations today, I attempted a couple things I wouldn't normally eat. There are only so many foods I can eat and half of them are eliminated due to my preference. Ok so for dinner I had Ahi Tuna. I wrapped it in foil with a little balsamic vinegar and crushed garlic. I also baked (or roasted maybe?) some cauliflower. I saw this on Rachel Ray yesterday but had to make some modifications since she used EVOO. So I broke it into peices and laid it on a cookie sheet then sprinkled with balsamic vinegar (I really like vinegar if you can't tell LOL) and baked for a few minutes. It was pretty tasty! Of couse I had the Melba toast and an apple. The Ahi Tuna was actually pretty good. Next time I'll try Lemon Pepper and maybe fresh lemon. But it is a hearty fish and I felt like I ate something so that's good :)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Day 6-Still sick
March 24, 2010; 277 lbs!! Down 4 more pounds!!!
My doctor "prescribed" me with Bio Vegetarian and since I was already sick, I was to take 2 capsules every hour for 4 hours and to continue on it for 2 days after I feel better..if that makes sense.
Chris was really good with waking me up to take it. I wish I could say I feel better but I just don't. I have class tonight and I have no idea how I will make it. Unfortunately, it's a Statistics class so I HAVE to go..if I don't, I will have NO idea how to do my homework. UGH!
What I do feel better about is I AM DOWN ANOTHER 4 POUNDS! That is AMAZING!
I still feel hungry in the evenings after dinner but I guess that's expected. It's not an overwhelming "I'm starving" feeling and it gets worse if I think about food. I will give it another day or so before considering increasing the amount of hCG in my injections.
That being said, the mornings are getting easier and hopefully it's not because I'm sick. I was keeping myself busy to make it easier to put off lunch. Today, I almost forced myself to eat lunch because I realized it was 12 and I hadn't eaten yet. While I made my lunch, I knew I could eat but I didn't feel like I had to eat..if that makes sense. Tonight is class so I will be facing another challenge. We are given 30 minutes for a dinner break and I usually go to the cafe or to a nearby drive through. I have already planned my dinner out though and I will probably just stay in class so I am not as tempted..not that I would cheat but I want to enjoy my dinner and not think about what I could be having.
So...here's to another day. We'll see what the scale brings tomorrow :)
My doctor "prescribed" me with Bio Vegetarian and since I was already sick, I was to take 2 capsules every hour for 4 hours and to continue on it for 2 days after I feel better..if that makes sense.
Chris was really good with waking me up to take it. I wish I could say I feel better but I just don't. I have class tonight and I have no idea how I will make it. Unfortunately, it's a Statistics class so I HAVE to go..if I don't, I will have NO idea how to do my homework. UGH!
What I do feel better about is I AM DOWN ANOTHER 4 POUNDS! That is AMAZING!
I still feel hungry in the evenings after dinner but I guess that's expected. It's not an overwhelming "I'm starving" feeling and it gets worse if I think about food. I will give it another day or so before considering increasing the amount of hCG in my injections.
That being said, the mornings are getting easier and hopefully it's not because I'm sick. I was keeping myself busy to make it easier to put off lunch. Today, I almost forced myself to eat lunch because I realized it was 12 and I hadn't eaten yet. While I made my lunch, I knew I could eat but I didn't feel like I had to eat..if that makes sense. Tonight is class so I will be facing another challenge. We are given 30 minutes for a dinner break and I usually go to the cafe or to a nearby drive through. I have already planned my dinner out though and I will probably just stay in class so I am not as tempted..not that I would cheat but I want to enjoy my dinner and not think about what I could be having.
So...here's to another day. We'll see what the scale brings tomorrow :)
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
March 23, 2010; 281.4 lbs; almost 3 lbs down from yesterday which means 2 lbs total since I gained 1 lb during gourging.
Today, I am SICK. Not just not feeling well...SICK. I've been feeling not well for a couple of days and been coughing but today, it topped out. My chest feels like it is going to explode every time I cough. The Good thing is, my coughs are productive and always result in something coming out. The Bad..it hurts. The Ugly...I threw up..or attempted it anyway. When you only eat twice a day, there's not much in your tummy and I hadn't eaten yet. Cohen was cranky so I put him down for an early nap. I was definitely running a fever since I was FREEZING so I ran a nice HOT bath with a little lavendar bubble bath (oil free) and had a HOT rice sock for my neck. I stayed in there until the bath was cold..then re-ran more hot water. It was then that I started feeling funny. The sort of dizzy, think I might pass out, might throw up..weird sort of feeling. I had had this feeling before when I was pregnant and I took it is my body's way of saying I was too hot so I sat up so my top half was out of the water..the feeling got worse so I got out. Then the undeniably you are going to throw up feeling came. Brief panic..this is going to hurt...AND IT DID! The whole bottom half of my abdomen felt like it was being ripped out..that's all I remember. The Ugly-I passed out. Not sure how long I was out for since there are no clocks upstairs and I didn't really know the time beforehand. Thankfully Cohen was taking a nap. I called my doctor and told her what happened. She's confident it is NOT the diet, the food, the hCG. She's pretty sure I have the flu or something along the lines of it. Not sure about the throwing up but the passing out was probably from a drop in blood sugar due to not eating breakfast. I may have to split up fruit and Melba toast from lunch to have for breakfast.
Cohen was still sleeping so I attempted to eat lunch. My body needs nourishment in order to heal. The problem was, I want soup..a nice big bowl of brothy soup. I want a giant Vitamin C packed smoothie..but I can't. I settled for chicken, an orange, and melba toast. I could not stomach the veggies nor could I finish the chicken. I gagged down the orange but it burned. I had 2 cups of water and 3 cups of hot tea. My doctor said the weight loss may slow down since I'm not consuming everything but I shouldn't gain anything. She also gave me a supplement that I can take and should work in a matter of days. I have a "Meet The Doula's Night" on Friday and I need to be there.
Chris left work to pick up the supplement (all the way out in Anthem!)and come home so I can sleep. I was worried I would pass out again since I'm still feeling dizzy. Thankfully, Cohen is pretty self entertaining...the Bad is that he isn't feeling well either so he's extra cranky which does wonders for my pounding headache. I'm thankful Chris left work to help me so I can sleep. I just want to sleep and wake up feeling better. I HATE BEING SICK...and it's even worse when you are a Mom.
Today, I am SICK. Not just not feeling well...SICK. I've been feeling not well for a couple of days and been coughing but today, it topped out. My chest feels like it is going to explode every time I cough. The Good thing is, my coughs are productive and always result in something coming out. The Bad..it hurts. The Ugly...I threw up..or attempted it anyway. When you only eat twice a day, there's not much in your tummy and I hadn't eaten yet. Cohen was cranky so I put him down for an early nap. I was definitely running a fever since I was FREEZING so I ran a nice HOT bath with a little lavendar bubble bath (oil free) and had a HOT rice sock for my neck. I stayed in there until the bath was cold..then re-ran more hot water. It was then that I started feeling funny. The sort of dizzy, think I might pass out, might throw up..weird sort of feeling. I had had this feeling before when I was pregnant and I took it is my body's way of saying I was too hot so I sat up so my top half was out of the water..the feeling got worse so I got out. Then the undeniably you are going to throw up feeling came. Brief panic..this is going to hurt...AND IT DID! The whole bottom half of my abdomen felt like it was being ripped out..that's all I remember. The Ugly-I passed out. Not sure how long I was out for since there are no clocks upstairs and I didn't really know the time beforehand. Thankfully Cohen was taking a nap. I called my doctor and told her what happened. She's confident it is NOT the diet, the food, the hCG. She's pretty sure I have the flu or something along the lines of it. Not sure about the throwing up but the passing out was probably from a drop in blood sugar due to not eating breakfast. I may have to split up fruit and Melba toast from lunch to have for breakfast.
Cohen was still sleeping so I attempted to eat lunch. My body needs nourishment in order to heal. The problem was, I want soup..a nice big bowl of brothy soup. I want a giant Vitamin C packed smoothie..but I can't. I settled for chicken, an orange, and melba toast. I could not stomach the veggies nor could I finish the chicken. I gagged down the orange but it burned. I had 2 cups of water and 3 cups of hot tea. My doctor said the weight loss may slow down since I'm not consuming everything but I shouldn't gain anything. She also gave me a supplement that I can take and should work in a matter of days. I have a "Meet The Doula's Night" on Friday and I need to be there.
Chris left work to pick up the supplement (all the way out in Anthem!)and come home so I can sleep. I was worried I would pass out again since I'm still feeling dizzy. Thankfully, Cohen is pretty self entertaining...the Bad is that he isn't feeling well either so he's extra cranky which does wonders for my pounding headache. I'm thankful Chris left work to help me so I can sleep. I just want to sleep and wake up feeling better. I HATE BEING SICK...and it's even worse when you are a Mom.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Dinner time
Our dinner time usually consists of me making dinner, the boys and I eating with Chris joining part way through when he gets home from work.
This changes when 2 of the 4 members of the family are on different diets. Dinner time tonight was certainly interesting. I picked up a few quick things I could make the boys these first few days that didn't seem to appealing to me but still something I thought they would eat. Chris called when he was leaving work so I would have a better idea as to when he would be home. The boys really start to get hungry around 5-5:30 so there is only so much "putting off" I can do before I have to feed them. I already had an idea as to what I was going to eat...since my options are really limited. I made the boys noodles with beef tips, green beans, and strawberries. I had bought some bacon wrapped filets that I was going to eat during my gourging phase..didn't happen. So, for dinner tonight, I took the bacon off and it measured exactly 3.5 ounces :) I paired it with some fresh spinach that I sauteed with a little vinegar and some pepper, Melba toast (2 this time since I bought some roasted garlic flavor that are round and therefore half the size and calories), and half a grapefruit sprinkled with a bit of Stevia.
It was DELICIOUS!
This changes when 2 of the 4 members of the family are on different diets. Dinner time tonight was certainly interesting. I picked up a few quick things I could make the boys these first few days that didn't seem to appealing to me but still something I thought they would eat. Chris called when he was leaving work so I would have a better idea as to when he would be home. The boys really start to get hungry around 5-5:30 so there is only so much "putting off" I can do before I have to feed them. I already had an idea as to what I was going to eat...since my options are really limited. I made the boys noodles with beef tips, green beans, and strawberries. I had bought some bacon wrapped filets that I was going to eat during my gourging phase..didn't happen. So, for dinner tonight, I took the bacon off and it measured exactly 3.5 ounces :) I paired it with some fresh spinach that I sauteed with a little vinegar and some pepper, Melba toast (2 this time since I bought some roasted garlic flavor that are round and therefore half the size and calories), and half a grapefruit sprinkled with a bit of Stevia.
It was DELICIOUS!
Day 4-First day of 500 calories
March 22, 2010; 284; down 1 lb :)
I have a plan of attack this week in hopes of making this adjustment as easy as possible. I think I was smart with my gourging to help and I also know myself enough to know, if I'm busy, I don't think about food. So the plan is: put off lunch as long as possible since I am most hungry in the afternoon/evening and keep myself busy in the morning. The afternoon's are busy anyway between picking up Braedon from school, helping him with his homework, playing and dinner prep.
So this morning, I caught up on emails and worked on the what to eat post and decided it was time to go to the store. I didn't go shopping this weekend for approved foods knowing it would give me something to do today. It also meant I couldn't eat lunch too early since I would have to buy the food first. Good plan right?
It worked like a charm! I left for the store at 11 am. I was headed to Wal-Mart first for diapers/wipes, food and snacks for the boys, and some of my foods. I am supposed to eat organic when possible (which I try to do anyway) so that doesn't leave many options and I knew I would need to go to Sprouts. Chris started the Atkin's diet (much to my dismay) today so I had to think of things I could make for the boys for dinner that wouldn't be too hard for myself or Chris to pass up.
By the time we got home, it was just before 1pm so I was late giving myself my injection but not too bad. I then put all the groceries away and made my yummy lunch. I was curious how much 100 grams of meat was and I quickly found out LOL! It's a little more than 1 chicken finger :)
My lunch:
100 grams of chicken with a little seasoning, 1 cup steamed broccoli, 5 strawberries, and 1 Melba toast...with a glass of ice cold water :)
It was really good and I felt good after I ate it. Could I have eaten more? Yes but I know I don't need it. I also attempted a mental trick I had learned a while ago. Use a small plate rather than a full size dinner plate. That way, your plate is more full and you feel like you are eating more!
Dinner will be Cod grilled with some seasonings and lemon with a spinach "salad" with vinegar for dressing. I will probably have either an apple or half a grapefruit. And of course, another Melba toast!
I can't wait to see what the scale says tomorrow morning...stay tuned!
I have a plan of attack this week in hopes of making this adjustment as easy as possible. I think I was smart with my gourging to help and I also know myself enough to know, if I'm busy, I don't think about food. So the plan is: put off lunch as long as possible since I am most hungry in the afternoon/evening and keep myself busy in the morning. The afternoon's are busy anyway between picking up Braedon from school, helping him with his homework, playing and dinner prep.
So this morning, I caught up on emails and worked on the what to eat post and decided it was time to go to the store. I didn't go shopping this weekend for approved foods knowing it would give me something to do today. It also meant I couldn't eat lunch too early since I would have to buy the food first. Good plan right?
It worked like a charm! I left for the store at 11 am. I was headed to Wal-Mart first for diapers/wipes, food and snacks for the boys, and some of my foods. I am supposed to eat organic when possible (which I try to do anyway) so that doesn't leave many options and I knew I would need to go to Sprouts. Chris started the Atkin's diet (much to my dismay) today so I had to think of things I could make for the boys for dinner that wouldn't be too hard for myself or Chris to pass up.
By the time we got home, it was just before 1pm so I was late giving myself my injection but not too bad. I then put all the groceries away and made my yummy lunch. I was curious how much 100 grams of meat was and I quickly found out LOL! It's a little more than 1 chicken finger :)
My lunch:
100 grams of chicken with a little seasoning, 1 cup steamed broccoli, 5 strawberries, and 1 Melba toast...with a glass of ice cold water :)
It was really good and I felt good after I ate it. Could I have eaten more? Yes but I know I don't need it. I also attempted a mental trick I had learned a while ago. Use a small plate rather than a full size dinner plate. That way, your plate is more full and you feel like you are eating more!
Dinner will be Cod grilled with some seasonings and lemon with a spinach "salad" with vinegar for dressing. I will probably have either an apple or half a grapefruit. And of course, another Melba toast!
I can't wait to see what the scale says tomorrow morning...stay tuned!
What does 500 calories a day consist of?
As I start the low cal diet today, I thought I would post "What the heck do you eat on this diet?" In all of my research, I struggled to find the answer to this so in hopes of helping other's doing their research, I will post it here :)
Breakfast:
Tea or coffee in any quantity without sugar
Only 1 TBSP of milk allowed in 24 hours
Stevia, Saccharin or other sweeteners may be used
Lunch and Dinner:
1) 100 grams (3.5 oz) of veal, very lean beef, chicken breast, fresh white fish (Cod, Trout, or Halibut in water) lobster, crab, or shrimp.
*All visible fat must be removed before cooking and meat is weighed raw.
*Must be boiled or grilled without additional fat.
*Salmon, eel, tuna, herring, dried or pickled fish (um..yuck!) are not allowed.
*Chicken breast must be removed raw from the bird. Free range, organic is preferred.
2) One type of vegetable only to be chosen from the following: One cup of broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, celery, fennel, onions, red radishes, cucumbers, or asparagus. Unlimited amounts of spinach, chard, chicory, beet greens, green salad, or cabbage.
3) One Melba toast
4) One fruit: A small apple, a small orange, 5 strawberries or one-half grapefruit.
Seasonings and other stuff:
It is recommended to change your food up (not the same protein, veggies, and fruit for lunch and dinner on the same day).
The juice of 1 lemon daily is allowed
Salt, pepper, vinegar, mustard powder, garlic, sweet basil, parsley, thyme, majoram, etc. may be used for seasoning but NO OIL, BUTTER OR DRESSING.
Tea, coffee, plain water, or mineral water are the only drinks allowed-no restrictions on amounts but you should drink at least 2 liters per day.
The fruit or the Melba toast may be eaten between meals instead of with lunch or dinner but no more than 4 items may be eaten at one meal.
Lastly, anything not listed is forbidden.
I posted this for those researching the diet. DO NOT ATTEMPT A 500 CALORIE DIET WITHOUT THE hCG INJECTIONS. YOU MUST BE UNDER THE SUPERVISION OF A DOCTOR!
Breakfast:
Tea or coffee in any quantity without sugar
Only 1 TBSP of milk allowed in 24 hours
Stevia, Saccharin or other sweeteners may be used
Lunch and Dinner:
1) 100 grams (3.5 oz) of veal, very lean beef, chicken breast, fresh white fish (Cod, Trout, or Halibut in water) lobster, crab, or shrimp.
*All visible fat must be removed before cooking and meat is weighed raw.
*Must be boiled or grilled without additional fat.
*Salmon, eel, tuna, herring, dried or pickled fish (um..yuck!) are not allowed.
*Chicken breast must be removed raw from the bird. Free range, organic is preferred.
2) One type of vegetable only to be chosen from the following: One cup of broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, celery, fennel, onions, red radishes, cucumbers, or asparagus. Unlimited amounts of spinach, chard, chicory, beet greens, green salad, or cabbage.
3) One Melba toast
4) One fruit: A small apple, a small orange, 5 strawberries or one-half grapefruit.
Seasonings and other stuff:
It is recommended to change your food up (not the same protein, veggies, and fruit for lunch and dinner on the same day).
The juice of 1 lemon daily is allowed
Salt, pepper, vinegar, mustard powder, garlic, sweet basil, parsley, thyme, majoram, etc. may be used for seasoning but NO OIL, BUTTER OR DRESSING.
Tea, coffee, plain water, or mineral water are the only drinks allowed-no restrictions on amounts but you should drink at least 2 liters per day.
The fruit or the Melba toast may be eaten between meals instead of with lunch or dinner but no more than 4 items may be eaten at one meal.
Lastly, anything not listed is forbidden.
I posted this for those researching the diet. DO NOT ATTEMPT A 500 CALORIE DIET WITHOUT THE hCG INJECTIONS. YOU MUST BE UNDER THE SUPERVISION OF A DOCTOR!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Day 3-last day of gourging
March 21, 2010; 284.5
No weight lost but nothing gained either!
Today was a challenging day because I was able to see what life will be like on this diet while I am out and about. I am supposed to give myself the injection as close to the same time every day as possible. Since I started on the weekend, this meant around Noon. I was thinking first thing in the morning since I am up during the week at 7. However, I occassionaly get a sleep in day on the weekends and I didn't want to have to wake up during these rare times to give myself a shot LOL!
I had a prenatal appointment (with a client..I am not pregnant) this morning on the other side of the world..literally (Queen Creek). The appointment was at 10 which meant I had to leave by 8:30 and meant I would not be home at Noon for my injection. Since it has to stay cold, I had to plan on how to transport it. I need to get some sort of pack that diabetics carry. I'm certainly not the only one in this world that has to carry needles around LOL! For today, since I don't have one of these handy dandy packs, I filled the syringe, put it in a sandwich bag and place that in a container of ice. The next challenge, getting away to do it. I have to laugh at this next part though Chris was a little mad at me. I left my meeting close to 12 but didn't really realize it at the time. I was tired and ready to be home so that was my main concern (aside from the thought of the LONG drive home). So I'm driving down the freeway and realize it is now 12:15. Crap..So, do I pull off the 5 lane freeway and find somewhere to park to give myself the shot? NOPE :) I lifted up my shirt, and in it went LOL! If that's not committment, I don't know what is!
Ok so for what I ate today. It just so happens there was a Dunkin Donuts on my way to my clients house. DONUTS!! Woot! What a great way to celebrate my last day of gourging! So I stopped for a coffee, which is allowed on my 500 cal diet but only 1 TBSP of milk per 24 hours...and NO SUGAR..bleh! No thanks! Anyway, I ordered an egg, ham and cheese sandwich, hashbrowns and a vanilla coffee. I also order 6 donuts. Never in my wildest dreams could I eat that much but the thought was nice. I polished off my breakfast and indulged in a donut. After the appointment, I ate another donut. I now sit here after dinner, with 4 donuts left knowing I have to finish them tonight or they go bad.
For lunch, I stopped at In-n-out burger which I couldn't finish either and dinner was my last hoorah RED LOBSTER! Woot! Complete with a lobster tail, fried shrimp, shrimp scampi and crab legs...so good! And I did finish it off!
Tomorrow starts my low cal diet and I have made plans for every day this week after I drop Braedon off at school to keep my mind off what I can't eat. I discovered today, that I could make it to lunch time without eating as long as I wasn't really thinking about it. My plan is to drink a couple glasses of tea in the morning, then lunch around 11-12 and dinner will be at 5..hopefully. I can split up some of my lunch and dinner to have a snack which I may need between lunch and dinner.
Here's to tomorrow!
No weight lost but nothing gained either!
Today was a challenging day because I was able to see what life will be like on this diet while I am out and about. I am supposed to give myself the injection as close to the same time every day as possible. Since I started on the weekend, this meant around Noon. I was thinking first thing in the morning since I am up during the week at 7. However, I occassionaly get a sleep in day on the weekends and I didn't want to have to wake up during these rare times to give myself a shot LOL!
I had a prenatal appointment (with a client..I am not pregnant) this morning on the other side of the world..literally (Queen Creek). The appointment was at 10 which meant I had to leave by 8:30 and meant I would not be home at Noon for my injection. Since it has to stay cold, I had to plan on how to transport it. I need to get some sort of pack that diabetics carry. I'm certainly not the only one in this world that has to carry needles around LOL! For today, since I don't have one of these handy dandy packs, I filled the syringe, put it in a sandwich bag and place that in a container of ice. The next challenge, getting away to do it. I have to laugh at this next part though Chris was a little mad at me. I left my meeting close to 12 but didn't really realize it at the time. I was tired and ready to be home so that was my main concern (aside from the thought of the LONG drive home). So I'm driving down the freeway and realize it is now 12:15. Crap..So, do I pull off the 5 lane freeway and find somewhere to park to give myself the shot? NOPE :) I lifted up my shirt, and in it went LOL! If that's not committment, I don't know what is!
Ok so for what I ate today. It just so happens there was a Dunkin Donuts on my way to my clients house. DONUTS!! Woot! What a great way to celebrate my last day of gourging! So I stopped for a coffee, which is allowed on my 500 cal diet but only 1 TBSP of milk per 24 hours...and NO SUGAR..bleh! No thanks! Anyway, I ordered an egg, ham and cheese sandwich, hashbrowns and a vanilla coffee. I also order 6 donuts. Never in my wildest dreams could I eat that much but the thought was nice. I polished off my breakfast and indulged in a donut. After the appointment, I ate another donut. I now sit here after dinner, with 4 donuts left knowing I have to finish them tonight or they go bad.
For lunch, I stopped at In-n-out burger which I couldn't finish either and dinner was my last hoorah RED LOBSTER! Woot! Complete with a lobster tail, fried shrimp, shrimp scampi and crab legs...so good! And I did finish it off!
Tomorrow starts my low cal diet and I have made plans for every day this week after I drop Braedon off at school to keep my mind off what I can't eat. I discovered today, that I could make it to lunch time without eating as long as I wasn't really thinking about it. My plan is to drink a couple glasses of tea in the morning, then lunch around 11-12 and dinner will be at 5..hopefully. I can split up some of my lunch and dinner to have a snack which I may need between lunch and dinner.
Here's to tomorrow!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Day 2-still gourging
March 20, 2010; 284.5 lbs
I wasn't surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning. I was told not to worry about weight gain during the gourging phase..I mean, I am supposed to be eating to my max capacity as many fats and carbs as I can down...weight gain is expected, right? I'm sure it will come off soon! Scratch that, I KNOW it will come off soon!
For breakfast today, the kids and I are going to IHOP :) Pancakes, pancakes, and more pancakes..I'm hoping those will go down easy LOL!
Breakfast:
2 eggs, basted: finished about 1.5
Breakfast potatoes with ham, onions, cheese, and country gravy: ate most of them
2 peices SD toast: finished 1.5
2 pancakes with butter and syrup: finished 1
OJ: 1 glass
Since I ate breakfast so late, I didn't really eat lunch and went straight for dinner. There is a carnival very near our house so we wanted to take Braedon to it which meant a quick dinner at Sonic. My eyes were bigger than my tummy as always so we ordered to cheeseburger meals, cheese sticks and jalepeno poppers. Chris, of course, was laughing at me as I quickly approached my fullness and started getting the look of struggling. I managed to eat 3/4 of my burger, half my fries, 2 cheese sticks and 2 poppers. I topped it off with a hot fudge sundae. I might as well indulge myself while I can right?
Then we headed to the carnival..and what comes with carnivals? FOOD! We were there for about an hour before the smells started to get to me. I ordered a corndog since they looked so good...wasn't as good as it looked so Braedon and Cohen helped me finish it off. Then Braedon asked for popcorn and I helped him eat it. Lastly, I indulged myself in a candied apple. I haven't had one since I was a kid! It was quite delicious and Cohen was thrilled to help me finish it.
At some point in the afternoon, Chris looked over at me and said "I'm really proud of you". My natural reaction was "Why?" The sum of his response was that I am doing this diet. I researched it for a while and took the steps needed to start it (ie physical, doctor approval) and now I'm doing it. Despite my drastic fear of needles, I am on a plan that means I have to give myself an injection every day. He admitted he doesn't think he could ever do it. I didn't think I would be able to either but I know I need to make changes and as bad as it may sound, these changes have to happen quickly and drastically or I will give up. I can't hang on to .5-1 lb of weight loss per week like WW did. I would be excited the first couple of weeks because the weight fell off faster but when it narrowed out, I would become frustrated and quit or start cheating. With this, there is an end in sight-40 days or 34 lbs. I've seen first hand how it works and how quickly it works. I remind myself of that when 12 noon rolls around and it's time for my injection.
I wasn't surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning. I was told not to worry about weight gain during the gourging phase..I mean, I am supposed to be eating to my max capacity as many fats and carbs as I can down...weight gain is expected, right? I'm sure it will come off soon! Scratch that, I KNOW it will come off soon!
For breakfast today, the kids and I are going to IHOP :) Pancakes, pancakes, and more pancakes..I'm hoping those will go down easy LOL!
Breakfast:
2 eggs, basted: finished about 1.5
Breakfast potatoes with ham, onions, cheese, and country gravy: ate most of them
2 peices SD toast: finished 1.5
2 pancakes with butter and syrup: finished 1
OJ: 1 glass
Since I ate breakfast so late, I didn't really eat lunch and went straight for dinner. There is a carnival very near our house so we wanted to take Braedon to it which meant a quick dinner at Sonic. My eyes were bigger than my tummy as always so we ordered to cheeseburger meals, cheese sticks and jalepeno poppers. Chris, of course, was laughing at me as I quickly approached my fullness and started getting the look of struggling. I managed to eat 3/4 of my burger, half my fries, 2 cheese sticks and 2 poppers. I topped it off with a hot fudge sundae. I might as well indulge myself while I can right?
Then we headed to the carnival..and what comes with carnivals? FOOD! We were there for about an hour before the smells started to get to me. I ordered a corndog since they looked so good...wasn't as good as it looked so Braedon and Cohen helped me finish it off. Then Braedon asked for popcorn and I helped him eat it. Lastly, I indulged myself in a candied apple. I haven't had one since I was a kid! It was quite delicious and Cohen was thrilled to help me finish it.
At some point in the afternoon, Chris looked over at me and said "I'm really proud of you". My natural reaction was "Why?" The sum of his response was that I am doing this diet. I researched it for a while and took the steps needed to start it (ie physical, doctor approval) and now I'm doing it. Despite my drastic fear of needles, I am on a plan that means I have to give myself an injection every day. He admitted he doesn't think he could ever do it. I didn't think I would be able to either but I know I need to make changes and as bad as it may sound, these changes have to happen quickly and drastically or I will give up. I can't hang on to .5-1 lb of weight loss per week like WW did. I would be excited the first couple of weeks because the weight fell off faster but when it narrowed out, I would become frustrated and quit or start cheating. With this, there is an end in sight-40 days or 34 lbs. I've seen first hand how it works and how quickly it works. I remind myself of that when 12 noon rolls around and it's time for my injection.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Round 1, Day 1-Gourging phase
March 19, 2010; 284 lbs
I have been looking into the hCG diet for quite some time and after a lot of research, I decided it was going to be good for me once I was done nursing Cohen. I made an appointment with a recommended naturopathic doctor to be examined, discuss the diet and make sure I was a good candidate. After talking with a close family friend, I was aware of what it consisted of but I still had questions and I was happy to have them answered. There is a lot more to this than I had originally thought!
So, today marks day 1. There are 3 days of gourging with injections before the 500 calorie diet w/injections starts. I am to eat high carbs and fats to my maximum capacity. A dieters dream, right? WRONG! I am not used to eating high carbs and fats! I've been on a weight loss journey all my life and I have found this sort of diet makes me SICK!
So this morning I woke up, weighed myself (nekkid, after emptying my bladder as directed) and loaded up the kids for some errands. I do not own a food scale and I have to be very particular about my intake. I also came to realize our bathroom scale is broken. I stepped on it 4 times in a matter of a minute and got 4 different weights! Not good LOL!
After the store, we went to our favorite bagel which so happens to neighbor Starbucks. That I WILL miss! The boys had sausage/egg bagel sandwiches while I attempted to eat 2 scrambled eggs with cheese, breakfast potatoes and an asiago bagel with cream cheese. Whenever I have started a diet in the past, I felt like I was starving that first day with thoughts of everything I could NOT have. Today is different because I HAVE to eat this stuff. From what I've read and heard, the more fat and carbs I consume these first few days, the better I will feel the first few days of the 500 calorie diet. I tried and tried but I couldn't finish it all. I ate the whole bagel, half of the potatoes (which was an insane amount anyway) and 3/4 of the egss (which are NOT my fave since my pregnancy with Braedon). Oh and a LARGE dark cherry mocha from Starbucks (YUMMY!).
At 12 noon, I gave myself my first injection. I, of course, syked myself up for it so I was nervous. To top it off, Braedon wanted to watch. We have had to eliminate sugar from his diet for hyperactivity reasons and he is really struggling with it lately so it's good that I am starting this now. I told him that I couldn't have sugar either and now I have to give myself shots because of it. I wasn't totally lying right?? I re-iterated that we all need to change what we eat and that I don't want him to have to give himself shots because he ate too much sugar nor do I want him fat like me.
Ok so he watched me and cringed. I think he actually made it worse for me. I had to be the strong mommy when I already have a complex for needles and then top that off with having to do it myself?? Granted, it's a very SMALL needle (usually used for insulin injections) but still...
Injection done..not so bad LOL!
At 1pm I realized it had been a few hours since I had last ate. I was not hungry but knew I needed to eat something so I made some mashed potatoes (instant since it's what I had on hand). Normally, I have no problems eating mashed potatoes but I was struggling. I wasn't hungry so it didn't taste very good. Needless to say, I got through about half of them.
An hour or so later, I was having a feeling of not quite hungry but possibly getting there so I decided to have one of my favorite snacks....cereal! Honey Nut Cheerios to be exact. I don't have any problems eating bowls of cereal...except today. It was good, but I just felt like I was eating to eat. My doctor and Rachel both told me, the more I get in these 3 days, the better I will feel the first few days of the LC diet. After eating the cereal, I felt sick and knew I wouldn't be able to eat anything for a while.
4pm rolled around which is when I would normally start thinking about what to make for dinner or where we would go out for dinner since it's Friday. Nothing sounded good. Olive Garden (one of my fave's) would be a great way to get in lots of carbs and fats; Mexican would yeild the same result...if I could get myself to eat.
When Chris got home, we voted on Mexican since it was near BRU and we needed diapers. We ordered a cheese crisp for an appetizer and I ordered my favorite plate which I can NEVER finish. I hat 3 slices of cheese crisp and I was full even before my dinner came...trouble! I managed to eat my cheese enchilada and started on the taco. I got about half way through that and Chris could tell I was struggling. I gave him the rest of my taco and started on the green chile burrito..maybe a change of flavor would help. It was so good but I was so full. Somehow, I at half of it and just couldn't eat anymore. It was weird because I didn't have the feeling of "stuffed" or full like I normally would experience...it was different. Like, the food just didn't taste good anymore and if I even thought about taking another bite, I wanted to throw up.
I have been looking into the hCG diet for quite some time and after a lot of research, I decided it was going to be good for me once I was done nursing Cohen. I made an appointment with a recommended naturopathic doctor to be examined, discuss the diet and make sure I was a good candidate. After talking with a close family friend, I was aware of what it consisted of but I still had questions and I was happy to have them answered. There is a lot more to this than I had originally thought!
So, today marks day 1. There are 3 days of gourging with injections before the 500 calorie diet w/injections starts. I am to eat high carbs and fats to my maximum capacity. A dieters dream, right? WRONG! I am not used to eating high carbs and fats! I've been on a weight loss journey all my life and I have found this sort of diet makes me SICK!
So this morning I woke up, weighed myself (nekkid, after emptying my bladder as directed) and loaded up the kids for some errands. I do not own a food scale and I have to be very particular about my intake. I also came to realize our bathroom scale is broken. I stepped on it 4 times in a matter of a minute and got 4 different weights! Not good LOL!
After the store, we went to our favorite bagel which so happens to neighbor Starbucks. That I WILL miss! The boys had sausage/egg bagel sandwiches while I attempted to eat 2 scrambled eggs with cheese, breakfast potatoes and an asiago bagel with cream cheese. Whenever I have started a diet in the past, I felt like I was starving that first day with thoughts of everything I could NOT have. Today is different because I HAVE to eat this stuff. From what I've read and heard, the more fat and carbs I consume these first few days, the better I will feel the first few days of the 500 calorie diet. I tried and tried but I couldn't finish it all. I ate the whole bagel, half of the potatoes (which was an insane amount anyway) and 3/4 of the egss (which are NOT my fave since my pregnancy with Braedon). Oh and a LARGE dark cherry mocha from Starbucks (YUMMY!).
At 12 noon, I gave myself my first injection. I, of course, syked myself up for it so I was nervous. To top it off, Braedon wanted to watch. We have had to eliminate sugar from his diet for hyperactivity reasons and he is really struggling with it lately so it's good that I am starting this now. I told him that I couldn't have sugar either and now I have to give myself shots because of it. I wasn't totally lying right?? I re-iterated that we all need to change what we eat and that I don't want him to have to give himself shots because he ate too much sugar nor do I want him fat like me.
Ok so he watched me and cringed. I think he actually made it worse for me. I had to be the strong mommy when I already have a complex for needles and then top that off with having to do it myself?? Granted, it's a very SMALL needle (usually used for insulin injections) but still...
Injection done..not so bad LOL!
At 1pm I realized it had been a few hours since I had last ate. I was not hungry but knew I needed to eat something so I made some mashed potatoes (instant since it's what I had on hand). Normally, I have no problems eating mashed potatoes but I was struggling. I wasn't hungry so it didn't taste very good. Needless to say, I got through about half of them.
An hour or so later, I was having a feeling of not quite hungry but possibly getting there so I decided to have one of my favorite snacks....cereal! Honey Nut Cheerios to be exact. I don't have any problems eating bowls of cereal...except today. It was good, but I just felt like I was eating to eat. My doctor and Rachel both told me, the more I get in these 3 days, the better I will feel the first few days of the LC diet. After eating the cereal, I felt sick and knew I wouldn't be able to eat anything for a while.
4pm rolled around which is when I would normally start thinking about what to make for dinner or where we would go out for dinner since it's Friday. Nothing sounded good. Olive Garden (one of my fave's) would be a great way to get in lots of carbs and fats; Mexican would yeild the same result...if I could get myself to eat.
When Chris got home, we voted on Mexican since it was near BRU and we needed diapers. We ordered a cheese crisp for an appetizer and I ordered my favorite plate which I can NEVER finish. I hat 3 slices of cheese crisp and I was full even before my dinner came...trouble! I managed to eat my cheese enchilada and started on the taco. I got about half way through that and Chris could tell I was struggling. I gave him the rest of my taco and started on the green chile burrito..maybe a change of flavor would help. It was so good but I was so full. Somehow, I at half of it and just couldn't eat anymore. It was weird because I didn't have the feeling of "stuffed" or full like I normally would experience...it was different. Like, the food just didn't taste good anymore and if I even thought about taking another bite, I wanted to throw up.
Starting weight and measurements
March 19, 2010
Starting weight and measurements
Height: 5'8" (5'7" according to the doctor)
Weight: 283 lbs (I can't believe I am posting this! Big step here!)
Body fat: 46.2%
BMI: 44.3
Blood Pressure: 120/80
Neck: 14
Chest: 45 3/4
Waist: 54.5
Hips: 47
Upper Arm: 16 3/4
Thigh: 24
Calves: 17 3/4
Starting weight and measurements
Height: 5'8" (5'7" according to the doctor)
Weight: 283 lbs (I can't believe I am posting this! Big step here!)
Body fat: 46.2%
BMI: 44.3
Blood Pressure: 120/80
Neck: 14
Chest: 45 3/4
Waist: 54.5
Hips: 47
Upper Arm: 16 3/4
Thigh: 24
Calves: 17 3/4
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