Temptations and Tiredness

March 25, 2010; 276 lbs; 8 lbs down :)

Today was a challenge. I expected challenges but it is getting harder and harder. The mornings are fine; I have no problems in the morning. The afternoon, evening? Another story. I was doing fine until I had to go to the store for dog food and I wanted to pick up some flavored teas.

So, I grabbed a snack for the boys, picked up Braedon from school, and we headed to the store. I *tried* to be good and breeze past aisles containing food I couldn't have. Of course, right inside the front door was FRESH baked French bread..ugh! Then there were avocado's on an end cap..come on! I had to pick up more paper plates which just so conveniently happens to be by the potato chips. I am not normally a potato chip person but when you "can't" have it, all of a sudden, that's all you do want! Ok, quick out of the grocery aisles. I did it backwards, of course, so I had to head to the other end of the store for dog food. Great, out of temptation zones, right? WRONG!

I headed to check out and of course every line was jam packed. I scouted out the shortest line and waited my turn. I get into the actual line part, you know the part I'm talking about...the drinks, and candies, and chips, and all the impulse buy stuff. Of couse, my luck means that not only is there lines of candy..this just so happens to be the ICE CREAM aisle! Are you freakin kidding me? So here I am surrounded by yummy delicious ice cream and candy galore. I would have picked up the Reese's peices, the beef jerky, the skittles, and a few ice creams. Ok maybe not all of it normally, but today I certainly wanted to. I wondered what just a little taste would do for my weight loss. Just a little taste??

Then came dinner. I thought I would be ok making the boys dinner since it had been ok. Well, previous nights didn't consist of Fettuccine Alfredo. Yeah, big mistake today! I scooped the boys portions onto their plates and let them start eating. I wanted to take just one bite so bad. Just one bite couldn't hurt. I kept telling myself one bite would be ok.

Thankfully, my better judgement won and I didn't take just a bite. But, I still want to. Such is life I guess.

Today also brought on a sort of tiredness. I don't want to say exhausted because I'm not there. Walking around the store made me realize I was just tired. My body was tired, not my head..if that makes sense. I almost felt like I had been at the gym for 2 hours. I also noticed my tummy muscles had the same feeling..weird! I was told to inject in my abdomen so maybe that explains the feeling there? Not sure but it wasn't bothersome. I don't have an abundance of energy and I do wear out easily but it's not like I can't function daily. This could also be because of the wonderful flu (or whatever it is) that I've been battling the last few days as well.

I have noticed dry skin which I was warned about. Since I am not consuming any fat or oils, the skin tends to dry out. My face is taking the hit of it so far so I definitely need to go out and get one of the approved oil free lotions besides baby lotion. I can't see putting baby lotion on my face but when push comes to shove, I will resort to baby lotion LOL! Another side effect is break outs. Ah yes, I feel like I am a teenager again..FANTASTIC!

Ok, last thing..keeping up with previous posts...my menu today :)

Lunch: Chicken Spinach salad-I put some fresh spinach in a bowl, cut up chicken and smashed the Melba toast as a sort of croutons. Then drizzled some red wine vinegar as dressing. For fruit, I had half a grapefruit lightly sprinkled with Stevia. It was pretty tasty and quite satisfying. Spinach is something I can have unlimited of :)

Dinner: Since I had so many temptations today, I attempted a couple things I wouldn't normally eat. There are only so many foods I can eat and half of them are eliminated due to my preference. Ok so for dinner I had Ahi Tuna. I wrapped it in foil with a little balsamic vinegar and crushed garlic. I also baked (or roasted maybe?) some cauliflower. I saw this on Rachel Ray yesterday but had to make some modifications since she used EVOO. So I broke it into peices and laid it on a cookie sheet then sprinkled with balsamic vinegar (I really like vinegar if you can't tell LOL) and baked for a few minutes. It was pretty tasty! Of couse I had the Melba toast and an apple. The Ahi Tuna was actually pretty good. Next time I'll try Lemon Pepper and maybe fresh lemon. But it is a hearty fish and I felt like I ate something so that's good :)