The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

March 23, 2010; 281.4 lbs; almost 3 lbs down from yesterday which means 2 lbs total since I gained 1 lb during gourging.

Today, I am SICK. Not just not feeling well...SICK. I've been feeling not well for a couple of days and been coughing but today, it topped out. My chest feels like it is going to explode every time I cough. The Good thing is, my coughs are productive and always result in something coming out. The Bad..it hurts. The Ugly...I threw up..or attempted it anyway. When you only eat twice a day, there's not much in your tummy and I hadn't eaten yet. Cohen was cranky so I put him down for an early nap. I was definitely running a fever since I was FREEZING so I ran a nice HOT bath with a little lavendar bubble bath (oil free) and had a HOT rice sock for my neck. I stayed in there until the bath was cold..then re-ran more hot water. It was then that I started feeling funny. The sort of dizzy, think I might pass out, might throw up..weird sort of feeling. I had had this feeling before when I was pregnant and I took it is my body's way of saying I was too hot so I sat up so my top half was out of the water..the feeling got worse so I got out. Then the undeniably you are going to throw up feeling came. Brief panic..this is going to hurt...AND IT DID! The whole bottom half of my abdomen felt like it was being ripped out..that's all I remember. The Ugly-I passed out. Not sure how long I was out for since there are no clocks upstairs and I didn't really know the time beforehand. Thankfully Cohen was taking a nap. I called my doctor and told her what happened. She's confident it is NOT the diet, the food, the hCG. She's pretty sure I have the flu or something along the lines of it. Not sure about the throwing up but the passing out was probably from a drop in blood sugar due to not eating breakfast. I may have to split up fruit and Melba toast from lunch to have for breakfast.

Cohen was still sleeping so I attempted to eat lunch. My body needs nourishment in order to heal. The problem was, I want soup..a nice big bowl of brothy soup. I want a giant Vitamin C packed smoothie..but I can't. I settled for chicken, an orange, and melba toast. I could not stomach the veggies nor could I finish the chicken. I gagged down the orange but it burned. I had 2 cups of water and 3 cups of hot tea. My doctor said the weight loss may slow down since I'm not consuming everything but I shouldn't gain anything. She also gave me a supplement that I can take and should work in a matter of days. I have a "Meet The Doula's Night" on Friday and I need to be there.

Chris left work to pick up the supplement (all the way out in Anthem!)and come home so I can sleep. I was worried I would pass out again since I'm still feeling dizzy. Thankfully, Cohen is pretty self entertaining...the Bad is that he isn't feeling well either so he's extra cranky which does wonders for my pounding headache. I'm thankful Chris left work to help me so I can sleep. I just want to sleep and wake up feeling better. I HATE BEING SICK...and it's even worse when you are a Mom.