Day 2-still gourging

March 20, 2010; 284.5 lbs

I wasn't surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning. I was told not to worry about weight gain during the gourging phase..I mean, I am supposed to be eating to my max capacity as many fats and carbs as I can down...weight gain is expected, right? I'm sure it will come off soon! Scratch that, I KNOW it will come off soon!

For breakfast today, the kids and I are going to IHOP :) Pancakes, pancakes, and more pancakes..I'm hoping those will go down easy LOL!

Breakfast:

2 eggs, basted: finished about 1.5
Breakfast potatoes with ham, onions, cheese, and country gravy: ate most of them
2 peices SD toast: finished 1.5
2 pancakes with butter and syrup: finished 1
OJ: 1 glass

Since I ate breakfast so late, I didn't really eat lunch and went straight for dinner. There is a carnival very near our house so we wanted to take Braedon to it which meant a quick dinner at Sonic. My eyes were bigger than my tummy as always so we ordered to cheeseburger meals, cheese sticks and jalepeno poppers. Chris, of course, was laughing at me as I quickly approached my fullness and started getting the look of struggling. I managed to eat 3/4 of my burger, half my fries, 2 cheese sticks and 2 poppers. I topped it off with a hot fudge sundae. I might as well indulge myself while I can right?

Then we headed to the carnival..and what comes with carnivals? FOOD! We were there for about an hour before the smells started to get to me. I ordered a corndog since they looked so good...wasn't as good as it looked so Braedon and Cohen helped me finish it off. Then Braedon asked for popcorn and I helped him eat it. Lastly, I indulged myself in a candied apple. I haven't had one since I was a kid! It was quite delicious and Cohen was thrilled to help me finish it.

At some point in the afternoon, Chris looked over at me and said "I'm really proud of you". My natural reaction was "Why?" The sum of his response was that I am doing this diet. I researched it for a while and took the steps needed to start it (ie physical, doctor approval) and now I'm doing it. Despite my drastic fear of needles, I am on a plan that means I have to give myself an injection every day. He admitted he doesn't think he could ever do it. I didn't think I would be able to either but I know I need to make changes and as bad as it may sound, these changes have to happen quickly and drastically or I will give up. I can't hang on to .5-1 lb of weight loss per week like WW did. I would be excited the first couple of weeks because the weight fell off faster but when it narrowed out, I would become frustrated and quit or start cheating. With this, there is an end in sight-40 days or 34 lbs. I've seen first hand how it works and how quickly it works. I remind myself of that when 12 noon rolls around and it's time for my injection.